There are surfaces in our lives which we pass by every day. The sheen of a coffee cup, the gleam of some stainless steel appliance, the window made a mirror by darkness. We pass them by, unseen and unnoticed. Yet they capture us and throw us back into the world.
If no one sees that reflected bit of us — your nose caught in the shine of the toothbrush holder, your fingers tapping out a rhythm on the guitar, the curve of your hip in the shower knob — does it make a sight? Does it make a sound?
I’ve been struggling this year with knowing that I am enough. Not when I’m fully actualized; not when I’ve achieved Nirvana; not when I’ve been transformed…but now, right now, I am enough. Even in illness. Even in shortcomings. Even in the ever-present, ever-niggling experience of not-knowing. Enough.
In every reflective surface, every unexpected mirror, the world captures my image and throws it back at me.
She chants:Â Â “Be here now.”
She bears witness: Â “You ARE here now.”
She testifies: “You, just as you are, are enough.”
Do you promise to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth? I do. Even to my very self.
ThisÂ is forÂ Susannah Conway’s Â Unravelling ecourse.Â If this inspires you, please consider taking the course.Â In this post: ReflectionsÂ inÂ a tub fixture with a lavender filter, black & white, the original photo, and colour saturation.